As I moved areas I began to understand how much it hurt because moving into a new school where I was pretty much alone was hell. I was afraid of all of my peers save the odd one who would talk to me because only one or two accepted me at first. I was even afraid to cry so I just didn't and they still called me weird for doing so. I had smashed my head into a playground obstacle but I didn't cry in fear of being bullied again.I couldn't believe how harsh they were towards me and they told me things that really hurt and pushed me into a corner of being shy. They were such narcissists and I hated it but I didn't speak up and never played with anybody because nobody would. My mum told me that they had reasons, that they were probably influenced by their parents and the rest but I thought that if I could handle my parents they should be able to do the same.
All of my friends were usually ones that were insulted alongside me or younger than me because I had gotten friends on the playground. On the playground I had a few skills where some kids would watch me and they became my friends and basically my family. Though they were younger they were definitely a lot nicer and kinder towards me. I also began to feel bad for my younger brother who got into fights simply because he wanted to fight back against some of the meaner kids. He hated school so much and it was really upsetting.
In the end I never really 'defeated' the bullies but moving to TIS boosted my confidence when I met my first class because they were all very kind. I liked all of them even if a few got on my nerves, they weren't major fem-dogs like all the others. All of them disgust me to the point of no return at how they decide that dating, bullying and wearing makeup is okay when you happen to be so young.
Even though bullies are horrible it's usually the parents that are the root of the problem. Neglecting, favouring or fighting around a child is bound to hurt them no matter what. Being drunk or leaving them behind when they need you is pure bull…ship. Don't get me wrong, there are some out there who are just bad to the bone or enjoy the pain of others. You can never really prevent bullying from happening because it always does but if you can try to understand why the act out then maybe it could help. Dealing with them is easy if you just ignore them and act as kindly to them as possible like if one were to swear at you just politely lecture them.
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